Today

Today was a good day. That seems like such a minor thing but lately, that has been something I have seemed unable to achieve. When the first thoughts that come to my mind every morning when I wake up are "God, help me", I know I am in the proper position to receive just that. Lying flat on my face knowing the day can't even begin until I have begged God just to "help me." Everything has been a struggle lately and I am finally tired of it! The circumstances of life have been difficult but the real struggle has been the one going on inside myself. I have been apathetic-- is there anything worse? So, as I cried to God for help today, He has given me just that. And today has been a good day.

Highlights of our day:
* Went to the nursing home and visited and sang hymns with the sweet ones there for an hour
* Had a picnic lunch with a couple from our new church
* Came home and wrote some postcards to friends of the children, then actually mailed them!
* Read 2 chapters of Narnia, and worked puzzles all afternoon
* Took the dogs for a walk

Change

I am finding out change can be a good thing! After moving away from San Angelo where we had lived for 14 years, change was not something I was exactly excited about. I tried to pose it all as a "Grand Adventure" for the children while inside wondering just what kind of grand adventure it would actually be. Over and over and over again God has shown me just how PRESENT He is in our lives. This year has probably been one of the most difficult in my life and not just because of the change of "the move." God has been there each step of the way, preparing a place for us, going before us to make the way and behind us to guard our way.

Things have been difficult as of late, and that is one reason I want to keep this journal. I read other people's blogs and their lives all seem so rosy and happy and well...... perfectly in order all the time. I want to be real. I want others to know that people who love God and have a heart to serve Him really can struggle and KNOW that He is God at the same time. Not that I am at all interested in making this a pity party page or anything. I just want to see others seeing us praising Him in the good times and the bad. For HE IS GOD ALONE. BLESSED BE THE NAME OF THE LORD!